Skinny Bitchin

I'm sure you have all heard of the Skinny Bitch trend in books that began when we were in high school.  The first person to introduce it to me was my friend Jillian, who read it and was less than impressed.  Its not asking you to change your eating habits, its telling you to change your life.  Thats not an easy pill for everyone to swallow.  Years passed and another friend of mine lived by that book, it genuinely changed her life, I had to give it a shot.  I read it and was not disappointed with the book, just with myself.  That is an entirely different post, maybe another day, for now I will talk about how a different book in the series 'Skinny Bitchin' helped me.  Now to be honest, you do not need to own this book, as it is essentially a journal and you can achieve that with a composition book for 99 cents. I fell for the gimmick and I'm pretty glad I did.  It is a self proclaimed journal to help you "get off your ass and change your life, achieve your goals, and rock your world" (as the cover will sell you).  They re-introduce you to the "magic in journaling" and explain how there is just something about getting your "fears, gripes and goals" on paper, will help you to conquer them.  I had a diary when I was younger, and when I look back at it now and read a few pages, I just have to laugh at myself.  All my entries were usually about boys and my girlfriends, but they weren't my girlfriends silly,  just girls who were friends, because that would be weird. Oh to be that young and innocent again.  Journaling now has an entirely different purpose and meaning for me.  It is a way to figure my sh*t out , get things out of my head, off my mind and onto my paper.  I keep one now at my bedside even and I can't tell you how much it has improved my sleeping.  I am one of those "worry worts" and at night right as I'm trying to sleep, everything I was worrying about during the day or for the next day even comes back and dances around my mind until hours have passed and I'm still thinking.  I started to take Melatonin because I thought if I were just extra tired, it wouldn't give my mind a chance to start wandering…turning off my thinker in a way…but that wasn't enough.  I still found myself contemplating all things from money, what to make for dinner, organizing my closet, baking recipes I want to try out…my "TO DO" list for the next day, etc.  And it wasn't until I kept a notebook and a pen next to the bed, where I could write all of these nonsense ideas onto paper that I could sleep soundly.  It was an instant relief.  Immediate gratification.  Out of my head, off my mind.  So kudos to the Skinny Bitch girls for reminding me of all the benefits of journaling.  And I can encourage all of you "worry worts" to keep a journal by your bedside, it might help you to get some extra zzz's at night (and perhaps you already do, as I realize I am coming into this ritual immaturely).   I'm pretty good at being a few steps behind in the game, but I'm okay with that too now.

 Thanks Bitches